Thanks to the feeling called....................Humanity

I was very small when this incident happened with me and although,I don't remember much things of my childhood but this incident is like carved deep in my mind.I was 6 yrs. old then and it was the time when my summer vacations were going on.My late maternal grandma lived hardly 2 kilometers from my home.Like every child, I went to stay there during that time.My mausi(s) had also come up there and so did my other cousins.It was not that I was staying over there for the first time,infact I spent most of my time with my nani daily.But even then,I felt a lot uncomfortable that day living there without my parents who had dropped me there.They left for my mama's place which was half km away from my nani's home but i didn't know that my parents would be visiting my newly wed mama after leaving me at nani's home.After about 30 min. or so since they left,I suddenly felt an urge to meet ma papa.And I ran away without knowing my own address.Everyone adult in nani's home ran to stop me.But I was ferocious then,running straight.I had thought that I would get my parents in the way of my home but they had gone to mama's house & i didn't know that.After running madly to about 1 km,I stopped because I was not able to recall which way to go to reach my home.It was 9:30 at night and it was a lone area with trucks' fleet covering all the roads.I was damn scared with the scene.I started crying not finding any other option.After 10 min. or so,a young sardar came up to me and lifted me up in his hands.I was much more frightened.He asked me the reason of crying.I told him,"mummy ke paas jana hai",in a shaky voice.He asked me my address then but I also didn't know that.I said,"mujhe yaad nahi hai".Then he pointed towards his truck and told me,"aaj raat mujhe calcutta jana hai,ya to rasta bata do varna calcutta le chalunga".I just started feeling short of heart beats listening this.I immediately started telling him the way to go in the hope that somehow,i'll reach my place.Moving through right & wrong turns for about ! hr.,I reached my home.My neighbour thanked him & he left after confirming with me that I was at the right place.
My parents were not home at that time.Then the neighbour called them up to tell that I had reached home safely.My parents & other relatives were searching for me till then.The person who made me go to my family has always been thought as an angel for me & my family as well.Such people are rare to be found today who are ready to take pains without any selfishness.He showed that he was a"human".Today,the people around are no less than animals who only wait for an opportunity to take undue advantage of anyone & everyone.Though this seems an ordinary incident but the result of it can't be seen today.I'll always be thankful to him for giving me the chance of living with my family again.

.............And I lost my friend

I had this friend of mine,whom not only i loved,but our whole batch in school cherished.She was adorable,sweet,intelligent & always wore that infectious smile on her lips which kept everybody around her happy.She was the topper of both 10th & 12th std. in our batch.Her name truly described her qualities.She was Mehak Luthra,an integral part of the group of we,4 friends,myself,Ayush Suppu & Mehak.....We used to gather for parties,for studies,for meeting each other after we all left for our colleges.Each time,we 4 were free,we used to meet at Suppu's or my place.It was so fun.She was different than others.She lived with her single parent,her mother & two of her brothers lived with her father.She had a very rich background but she did never complain her mother for letting her live without any facilities.She had a desire to fulfil every dream of her mother because she knew that her mother was living with a heavy heart.Her mother separated with her father because of his infidelity.This phase of life was unbearable & un recoverable as well.She wanted to be an engineer cracking the IIT-JEE but her mother,who herself was a dentist,wanted her to become a dentist too.She,therefore,opted for her mother's choice & took admission in a medical college in Meerut,Subharti.She was among good students there also.We met a several times after her admission there.It was my 2nd year of B.Tech i.e 2005.I had a sessional next day.My mother called me up & told me that an accident occured in Meerut & Mehak was missing since then.I started calling her no. but of no consequence.I tried other friend's no.s but I didn't get to talk to any of them.Then I got Ayush's call who was the closest to Mehak of all of us.I asked him about any news regarding Mehak.He said,"Vo mil gayi".And as i listened that,i started sighing with relief and asked him,"kya hua tha,thik hai ab vo?".I got the answer,"dead body mili hai".There was just silence following this.After a pause,he told that she & aunty(her mother) went to Victoria Park where there was a consumer goods' fair.She was 95% burnt & was identified by her clothing and accessories.Aunty was 65% burnt & was referred to Safdarjung Hospital,New Delhi.That was the day calling for Mehak's departure from this world.Otherwise she wouldn't have gone there on that fateful evening.Ayush & Mehak had a plan of meeting in Meerut itself.But suddenly,her father called her saying,he would come ther to meet her.She refused Ayush to come that day & went with her mother to Victoria Park for a timepass because her father again called her up to cancel the plan.Again,a lady who was outside the park's entrance on that day,told that both Mehak & aunty had come out of the park before the fire broke out.But then Mehak,who was very fond of cosmetics,went in again to buy some of them,leaving aunty outside.And that was the instant,that took away our beloved Mehak from us.After this,aunty also got inside to look for Mehak,but fainted & burnt herself to 65%.Ayush was dumb for the next few days.He called me the next day of this incident & said,"yaar pura din ho gaya hai,par Mehak ka koi fone nai aaya aaj,koi sms bhi nai mila.Vo to roj phone karti thi.Uska no. bhi nahi mil raha hai.pata nahi kya hua hai?" I was scared to listen these things from Ayush .After exactly a week,aunty also succumbed to injuries.We did not even get to see her in the last ceremonies.She was a gem of a person,an epitome of all good qualities.Her birthday fell on 8th nov. & we still miss her a lot.She has left a vaccuum in our lives which nobody can fill up by any means because God creates angels rarely just to remind us of His power.She was a person,who,despite being sad for herself & her mother,made others laugh.We love her a lot.And we can never forget her charming smile.Her physical appearence amongst us is something we desire,but her spiritual presence is something,we have.Love you Mehak.........

Somebody.........In the journey of life

When i was a school student,i used to write a lot of things,childish though.I love my friends a lot & most of them are with me since a long time(my school friends).I wrote this stuff considering them all(Suppu,Jitin,Shuchita,Prashant) when i was about 14 or so.This goes as written below:-)
Life is all about a journey,
accompanied by triumphs & trifels.
People meet & separate throughout,
a lasting impression does round about.
Routes of a journey are set though,
but the case with life is just not so.
Neither the paths are predecided,
nor they can ever be presided.
A constant help,care in this journey by someone,
makes us paas happily,merrily this one.
Love is the weakness of a human,
strangely,with it,he feels what he wants to do,he can.
Life is the toughest,longest,an ordeal kind journey for everybody,
someone with us to share our happiness,sorrows is a buddy.
There is someone,somewhere for every human being ,
who is happier than ever for you are the happiest being.
There is someone,somewhere for every person in the crowd,
who lends his shoulders to support you,to calm you down.
Does everybody do this??
Does everybody make you feel him as a bliss?
That is only "Somebody".
God has created it that way,
That many people can make you feel happy & gay.
But,that is only somebody who makes you feel "Special",
who is ready to sacrifice any thing to take you out of a hassel.
That somebody makes you feel special as he himself is special,
that somebody believes you,makes you form & bring life to your dreams' castle.
That somebody is very difficult to find,
that somebody touches your heart,soul & mind.
That somebody is he who loves you more than anyone else in the world.
That somebody is he who is sent by God for you are also a part of this world.
That somebody is he who wipes your tears when you cry,
That somebody is he who makes you think big & try.
That somebody is he who wishes to God first of all for you,the dearest,
That somebody is he whom being miles apart,you feel the nearest.
That somebody is he who shows you the right path.
That somebody is he whose relationship maintains the same or increases the in-between warmth.
That somebody is he who doesn't love you by your stature but helps you make one apart.
That somebody is he who doesn't bring for you moon & stars,but makes you feel & be a star.
Realize somebody's existence,
Lovable,caring,understanding,trustworthy,loyal,admirable,making sense.
That somebody is the most precious gift,heaven has sent for you,
That somebody is the brightest star you have chosen for yourself.
That somebody is above all worldly things,
That somebody is a "FRIEND".

A WALK TO REMEMBER..............

Yes,it was certainly a walk to remember.This is one of the most amazing movies i've ever watched.everytime i watch it,it has a hangover lasting a few days.I don't really enjoy hollywood flicks because they are just a terrible showcase of weird fantasies.But this movie has the feelings which touch one's heart so deep.It has Shane West & Mandy Moore in the main lead as Landon & Jamie,respectively.It depicts that true love never dies.Landon is a brat,playing in a gang of some other brats.Jamie is a very simple girl,a priest's daughter.Both study in the same school.Despite of ignoring Jamie over & over again,Landon falls in love with her.Their love is shown by this beautiful song that Jamie sings unknowingly and makes Landonfall in love with her:
There's a song that's inside of my soul'
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again.
I'm awake in the infinite cold,
But you sing to me over and over and over .
So I lay my head back down ,
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours,
I pray to be only yours.
I know now you're my only hope.
Sing to me the song of the stars,
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far,
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.
I give you my destiny,
I'm giving you all of me,
I want your symphony,
Singing in all that I am,
At the top of my lungs ,
I'm giving it back.
One day he comes to know that she's been suffering with leukaemia(blood cancer).On knowing this,he breaks down obviously.He asks Jamie,"are you scared .......to death?".Jamie answers,"I am scared of not being with you."Landon assures her saying,"this is not going to happen..... I'll be there with you." He,then fulfils whatever Jamie desires; help her enjoy her life,marries her,takes admission in a medical college as Jamie wanted so.In other words,he lives for Jamie till her end & after that too.Jamie tells Landon,"you are my angel."Jamie,who always wanted to see a miracle in her life,dies an unfortunate death.Landon feels sorry for not being able to create a miracle in Jamie's life but her father tells Landon,"She did see her miracle .......it was you." What Landon feels after her death is so true,"Love is like the wind......i can't see it,but i can feel it." This masterpiece sends the message:
Love is always patient & kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or concieted.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offence & it's not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins,
but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse,to trust,to hope,
and to endure whatever comes.
As for Jamie,God has a bigger plan for everybody than what one has for himself.Like because Jamie was sick,God sent Landon to her,the miracle in her life.......Love changed Landon's life and has the power to change anything.......for better.
I wrote about it because i loved the movie like anything and i wish everyone to watch it atleast once.This can make you believe in love.................

Life IS a Mystery........

As i m passing through different phases of life (school,and now college), i realise this mysterious element goes on covering it.when i was a kid, i knew nothing about world,the people here and so i always kept playin' happily.now, after completing my graduation,i m still that bad at understanding the people around me as i was when i was small.however,i m not that happy-go -lucky about it as i was ,as a kid.
i m always in the process of thinking about my past connections with different people.and i,ve never been able to understand why do we connect with some of them so quickly in a blink only and never with some others.
my last semester or say,last year in the college was like this only.i got away from some people whom i felt as good friends of mine and at the same time came closer to some others. surprisingly,i feel as if they are friends with me since a long time.i feel comfortable with them.during past months,i laughed with them,cried with them,cracked jokes at them and it was all fun,it was all the more memorable than the earlier 3 yrs.i miss all of them now. i don't know when'll i meet them next???will i get such people again in my life???it's all a mystery for me,atleast.i've always loved people around me and wanted to have them with myself forever.but it's sort of impossible for everyone to be with me for such a long time.
though,here i shared only a short span of a year and wrote about my friends only,but there's much more to live everyday,to feel every moment ,to cherish every instant.with all these mixed experiences,i can say i m still that bad at understanding the mystery called life as i was when i was a kid..............